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[Jan. 23rd, 2007|10:09 am] |
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Hmmm a livejournal revival? this possibly sounds like it may work Emmy. Though do people really want me to be the one to support a revival? You know since all my entries are either emo extreme or ranting.
Well i shall update today.
SHANE AND VALERIE CAN BOTH BURN IN HELL TOGETHER!
and I quote "Because u are still obsessing over my bf and all u do is talk about him and stalk him so bye stay out of my life"
wow what a way to end a 8 1/2 year best friendship. Over LIES.
The facts: 1) I hate Shane more than anyone else in the universe and want to stab him with a candy cane
2) I maybe see shane once or twice every week or so.
3) The only time I say or think anything concerning shane it is about how much I hate him and wish he would die and burn in hell.
Ask anyone whos with me everyday.
Cant say I'm too disappointed though. because whats the point of a friend who wont stand up for you, believes an idiot boyfriend over a 8 1/2 year best friend, can let go of something, and gets mad over NOTHING? The only person she talks to is Shane which means that HE is the one telling her that i'm "stalking him" and "obsessed." I seem to remember him saying that alot to her last year and at the beginning of this (school) year. AS IF I WOULD EVER GO AS LOW AS TO STALK SOMEONE! ESPECIALLY A COMPLETE IDIOT WITH NO CHANCE OF A FUTURE!
Needless to say I am pissed beyond reason. Someone who has known me 8 1/2 years should know me better than that and know without a doubt I would never do that. Sometime this week I'm going to have to talk to a certain person.
Wow, dont you just love exam week?
OK i'm done. i should post this before I hurt something. not myself. someone/thing else.
~Missa~
((candyxcanesxkillx)) |
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| Tryin to survive a roadtrip |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|12:22 pm] |
OK so i'm in the back of my mom's explore while my mother is driving and trying to kill us all... I just love the swerving and speeding and not staying in her lane, or for that mtter on the road. I fear for my life...
But anyways... My 16th b-day party is officialy August 14th!!! so all you people have to come...and bring me pretty presents lol. On my actual b-day (August 15th) kamber, Lynne and I are going to cedar pointe ^.^ I'm worried that my party is going to be hell though. Why cant my friends just get along?? I guess thats too much to ask even though its my b-day. Certain people can stop complaining about who i'm inviting because its MY fucking b-day and i can invite whoever the hell I want
*trys to calm down* ok...so i'm done ranting
Call me ppl!!
(((SHANE I HATE YOU AND YOU CAN GO TO HELL))) ((sorry Vivi! i love you!)) |
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[Jul. 25th, 2006|01:14 pm] |
OK ppl so my 16th birthday is in a month and I have been desperatly trying to plan it... At the moment my party is most likely going to be on my b-day August 15th so you can all stop asking me lol. the day after i'm most likely taking 2 friends with me to Cedar Point...tho I'm having an extremely hard time deciding who I should take... actually I know one person I'm taking for sure... So comment me if you wanna be the other friend I'm taking...
Anyways... I'm in Frankfort with no computer, no tv, and no friends. Oh what fun. I only have 6 minutes left on the library comp so i'm atempting to type fast.
Messages to ppl::::::
--Kamber i love DNAngel 5!! you know i couldnt buy it for you without reading it first lol.
--Emmy YOU HAVE TO CALL ME!!! I want my stuff too TT_TT
--Vivi we defiantly need to hang out when I get back.
--Justin... ... ...um nvr mind since you never answer your phone or call ppl back
--Ing call me. i left you yet another message!
--Everyone be amazed this post isnt a rant!!! isnt it amazing!!! lol
ack only 3 minutes left... so yea if you wanna talk to me more CALL ME 734-649-7049!!!! |
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[Jun. 26th, 2006|12:53 am] |
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OK the previous post was posted when i was extremely pissed off and things have since gotten worse in one situation and better in another. To clear up some questions i've been asked the people I still trust and know for sure are my friends are:
1. VALERIE
2. Justin
3. Micah
There are 3 of them. They are the best friends I have right now. If your not on the list well thats your own fault. DEAL WITH IT! |
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[Jun. 25th, 2006|03:22 pm] |
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| | Stupid Kid by Alkaline Trio | ] |
This post is gonna be emo so if you dont like TOO FUCKING BAD!!!!!
Somehow I have managed to fuck up the same friendship for the millionth time but this time i fucked up with ever actually saying anything, doing anything, saying something to someone else, or anything. Wow i must be getting really good at fucking myself over. My best friend cant/wont even help me out, but i cant blame her and i shouldnt even think of asking her to do the things that i have. She shouldnt have to choose again. Shes the only one of my friends that still fucking talks to me. Everyone suddenly wont. except Val and Micah. One of my friends suddenly refuses to answer his phone and refuses to return calls and talks only enough to say as little as possible. Which just proves i was being used for him to get closer to my best friend. But thats how it ALWAYS is. Someone barely ever talks to me, then they meet Val, then they want to be my best friend, then Val gets a bf, then they stop talking to me. Its happened so many times and for some reason i keep getting myself into the same situation. Everyone says i'm so fucking emo so i think i'm gonna prove them all right. I'm just going to take the knife sitting next to me and slash my wrists open then no one would have to see me and i wouldnt be there to fuck anything up ever again. That fucking emo enough for you?? I really dont see the point in trying anymore. Everyone just uses me for their own benifit and they know i will just sit there and not do anything about it because my whole life revolves around trying to make everyone else happy. So i'm giving up. I realized theres only 3 people in my life i can trust anymore and only 2 of them are true best friends who love me no matter how many times i've fucked up. They know who they are. and heres a hint: SHANE YOU'RE NOT ONE OF THEM!
--Some of the lyrics to Stupid Kid by Alkaline Trio. I absolutely love this somg right now.--
There are things that used to make me smile
One of them was you for just a little while
You left me for dead so far away
I replaced you with fear and shame
You'll be happy on the day I die
There are things that used to make me laugh
But now they're deeply buried in the past
I left them there so far away
Replaced my humor with my pain
I'll be happy on the day it dies
Remember when I said I love you
Well, forget it I take it back
I was just a stupid kid back then
I take back every word that I said
Fuck it all |
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| felt like doing this again |
[Jun. 10th, 2006|01:03 am] |
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| | Maybe Memories by THe Used | ] |
How does the world see me?
Song: My Fork in THe ROad (Your knife In My back)
Artist: Atreyu
Comments: umm so they think i'm a backstabber?
Will I have a happy life?
Song: The Nameless
Artist: Slipknot
Comments: I'll take that as a no
What do my friends really think of me?
Song: I'm a Fake
Artist: THe Used
Comments: So i guess i'ma fake...and to some extent i guess thats true
Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Overrated
Artist: Three Days Grace
Comments: is that a no? cuz i'm overrated?
How can I make myself happy?
Song: A Box Full Of Sharp Objects
Artist: The Used
Comments: Told Ya So!!!!!!!!
What should I do with my life?
Song: Wait and Bleed
Artist: Slipknot
Comments: so i'm going to wait and bleed for a living...sounds about right...
Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: Scared
Artist: Three Days Grace
Comments: Yea that fits all too well...
How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Rain
Artist: Breaking Benjamin
Comments: SEX IN THE RAIN!!! thats hot!
Will I ever have children?
Song: Sometimes
Artist: James
Comments: I'll only have kids sometimes? how does that work? do they die? or are am i gonna be like running a foster home?
Will I die happy?
Song: On My Own
Artist: The Used
Comments: I'll die alone so no i wont be happy
What is some good advice for me?
Song: Time To Dance
Artist: Panic! At THe Disco
Comments: I GOTTA DANCE!!! works for me lol
What is happiness?
Song: Cut Up Angels
Artist: The Used
Comments: Happiness is Cut Up Angels???
What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Burn
Artist: Three Days Grace
Comments: HELL YESS!!!!!!! FIRE!! i love to burn stuff!!
How will I be remembered?
Song: Maybe Memories
Artist: The Used
Comments: Yes only maybe will be remembered??? that sucks |
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[May. 13th, 2006|10:13 pm] |
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What do you and your bf\gf look like together as anime?
 You keep your relationship secret. You see that you don't need help fighting some of your battles but you get help from your bf/gf when you need it. You mean more to them then you think....so take your chance when you do, make them feel that you do care about them Take this quiz!
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it describes me and ________ so perfectly.... NEXT
What anime Guy is for you ( With Pics)
yea Kam he's my perfect anime guy. quizzes never lie. KADAJ IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!! *startes at kadaj pic* ... ... ... huh? what? ummmm.... NEXT
What would you look like as a Anime Girl? (With high quality pics + girls only)
And i leave you with what i supposedly look like as a anime girl... i dont think i would look like that... |
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[Mar. 28th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
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| | Our Sick Story (Thus Far) -Atreyu | ] |
wut kind of guys are drooling over u?
rebel. remember the smart ass that's sits in the back of the room that makes the teachers pull their hair out with the trouble he causes.he doesn't seem to have many friends and school, and is known to drink quite a bit too. he's a loner, but wants a campanion, and he's got his eye on you. Take this quiz!
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yea....this is true...
Who are you? for girls only (with anime pictures!!)
ummm...yea its true and i hate it...
wow Kam, are we really this alike?? I got the same results you did... |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2006|11:07 pm] |
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| | Mechanical Animals by MARILYN MANSON | ] |
Go to the music player of your choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud and press play. Use the song titles as your answers. NO CHEATING!
How does the world see me?
Song: I am Hated
Artist: Slipknot
Comments: amazing how well this song fits....
Will I have a happy life?
Song: The Frail
Artist: NIN
Comments: uhhh...does that mean i wont?
What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Stupid Girl
Artist: Alexz Johnson
Comments: yea that is sooo true
Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Get Busy or Get Busy Dying
Artist: Fall Out Boy
Comments: ... ... ...
How can I make myself happy?
Song: The Dope Show
Artist: Marilyn Manson
Comments: So basically drugs will make me happy
What should I do with my life?
Song: Poetic Tragedy
Artist: THe Used
Comments: yup that works
Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: The Downward Spiral
Artist: NIN
Comments: because everyone is going down a downward spiral
How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Laid
Artist: James
Comments: well thats pretty basic
Will I ever have children?
Song: 742617000027
Artist: Slipknot
Comments: FUCK i hope thats not a prediction of how many.
Will I die happy?
Song: Let You Down
Artist: Three Days Grace
Comments: so i'm gonna take that as a NO
What is some good advice for me?
Song: Me Out of Me
Artist: Alexz Johnson
Comments: so i cant take the me out of me
What is happiness?
Song: We'll Paint The Sky Blue
Artist: Zero Apostle (Micah!)
Comments: I WANNA PAINT THE SKY WITH MICAH!
What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Big Man With A Gun
Artist: NIN
Comments: HELL YES!
How will I be remembered?
Song: A little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me
Artist: Fall Out Boy
Comments: ... ... ... |
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[Mar. 21st, 2006|11:16 pm] |
Welcome to me being bored! ITS FINAL FANTASY QUIZ TIME!!!!!
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Which Final Fantasy character in which Final Fantasy world are you?
You are Lulu! Despite your sexy bondage outfit that is always falling off, you have a soft side, and love your cuddly dolls. The world of Final Fantasy X just wouldn't be the same without you.
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Yea I so wear bondage!
which final fantasy GF are you?
it didnt have a pic T_T |
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[Mar. 21st, 2006|04:23 pm] |
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HELL YEAH!!! SESSHOMARU THINKS I'M SEXY!! check it Emmy!! HA
Are you a light\dark angel, or an elemental? (Eight outcomes and great pictures.)
Oh, you're not exactly the nicest in the bunch. You love to cause trouble for everyone around you just to make them wail. But really, you just want others to feel the way you do, in the worst way possible.
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Hmmmm....somehow i'm not surprised....
Who is your anime Guy With cute pics of guys from anime
OMG OMG HE'S SO HOT!!!! I WISH THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO REALLY LOOKED LIKE THAT!! *faints* SO HOT!!! That is what my perfect guy would look like^_^
Yea so i was bored and took ALOT of quizzes...those are just the ones that were like interesting/i liked them. EMMY SESSHOMARU THINKS I'M SEXY AND ON ANOTHER QUIZ I TOOK IT SAID HE'D DEFFINATLY LOVE ME!!!! HA! I WIN! *faints* Lord Sesshomaru is SO hot! |
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[Feb. 5th, 2006|01:54 pm] |
its all fine until you find out it was someone you loved...
Just when i thought my week couldnt get any worse i find out that "the kid who killed himself" in saline was one of my friends. jake was one of my only friends in saline. I had very few friends maybe 5 tops and jake was one of the better ones. i miss him. You never would have guessed that anything was wrong. the last time i talked to him he seemed happy and nothing was wrong. No one knows any details...not even his gf. His parents were in Africa and probably still are. No one knows how he died or any reason at all. I wish someone did. No one is even really taking this seriously in saline. From what i've heard people were laughing about it and using it as an excuse to get out of class. i just cant believe it was Jake. The guy who i used to like, the guy who was my friend when no one else would be, the guy who was always making jokes and playing pranks, the guy who made everyone laugh. Hes gone. I've been crying since i found out. I just cant believe it.... |
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[Jan. 19th, 2006|04:35 pm] |
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| | People = Shit -- Slipknot | ] |
The following post is to someone so unless your that person disregard this post.
What the hell are you trying to do?! Actually never mind. I dont even fucking care anymore. Do what ever the hell you want. I dont even know why I even bothered. I should have listened to me REAL friends when warned me about you and told me to stay away from you. I guess we were never really friends. I guess you really were just using me to get closer to her. and i guess everything you told me was a lie. You're not there for me like you said you were and obviously you dont even care. and if you think i'm the reason she broke up with you then you dont know shit. you're completely clueless. I dont need this right now so go do what ever the hell you want. I dont know why i ever thought i could trust you. You can GO TO HELL! |
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[Jan. 17th, 2006|04:16 pm] |
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| | Vermillion pt. 2 -- Slipknot | ] |
Can i say it enough??? Please don't hate me anymore. Talk to me again. Please? I'm sorry I messed things up so bad. Forgive me? Please?
Unless you know what this post is about forget i ever wrote it. |
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[Jan. 17th, 2006|03:55 pm] |
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| | People = Shit -- Slipknot | ] |
--Disappear--
I just want to scream as loud as I can
Make everything go away
Make the pain end
Take a step back
Hold your breath
Fight back the tears
I won't be okay
The hurt won't go away
If I just disappear
No one will notice
If I'm consumed by fear
No one will care
If I fall
No one will save me
I have no life to live
Everythings in darkness
And I just disappear
I'm sorry
I love you
I promise
I'll never
They're all lies
I keep falling
Soon I'll disappear |
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[Jan. 10th, 2006|05:48 pm] |
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I'm sorry... |
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[Jan. 5th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
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| | Coming Undone- Korn | ] |
I'm in DENIAL... and have been for some time.
T_T
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ok spazing over |
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